Letter to Karen (Mar 2002)

Letter to Karen (Mar 2002)

My Dearest Princess,

Do you truly know who you are? You are fantastic. I know that you know that already, but I just want to keep reminding you for the next 50
years...If that's Okay...and if it's not, I will do it anyhow! Hello!
You are incredible...and I know it. Okay, we will attempt to limit our
conversation this evening to about 30 mins. Is that a deal? My little
heart won't like it, but I have already told my tender heart that "Karen
will make up for it when she arrives. She will think of something...I don't know what...But she will make it worth whatever sacrifices that we have had to make...because she loves me and my little tender heart. And she truly knows by now that I love her!"

So, how is your day in the medical field going so far? I went to chapel and Sun School...also had communion...could not keep my mind on the sermon. Why? I don't think you have to ask why? You already know why! I prayed for forgiveness before taking communion. God knows where I am in life. He loves me unconditionally as He does you. We are His children.

You are so SPECIAL to me! I want to be with you every passing moment. I need you. Of course, you know that by some of our conversations. Read on...

I miss you so desperately,
I want to be near you and feel you ever so close to me.
I want to experience you!
I cannot fully explain it.
Even though, I am seldom "at a loss" for words,
No matter how I try to express myself in missing you...
The right words, logical words, rational words do not come easily.
This experience defies reason and deduction.
My head...and my little heart speak to me about you all the time.
You have looked into my soul
And you know how I feel about you!
You are a special jewel...a sparkling perfect white diamond.
You have given me hope, faith, and love...
Like a beacon in the night to a lonely ship!
I know it has only been a few days since I saw you,
But it feels like an eternity! Why?
Your absence has turned my life upside down. Why?
I want our lives to be woven together like the finest tapestry
Of the entire known world...the most exquisite embroidery of all time!
I see your smile.
I see your beautiful face.
I long to be with you!
You make my heart feel as big as the earth itself! Why?
You have changed my darkest night into the noonday.
Only you can fill this empty space in my tender heart! Why?
Every day without you is another day without my Princess! Why?
What am I to do? What am I to say?
Well, at least, since I met you, I'm not in a fog anymore.

And the consolation is: You will be in my arms again soon!
Let me attempt to explain it the way an "artist" would explain it.
Missing you is like "doing a painting"...in drab colors!
However, being with you is like experiencing
Every stroke of the brush on the canvas with bright illuminated colors!
The rainbow brush strokes seem to automatically come to life
...stand out...
To the multitudes who are looking on...
The artist experiences his dreams and visions
As he puts the finishing touches to his masterpiece! Then...
The sounds of your laughter are heard.
The smell of your perfume is in the air.
Your enveloping warm smile penetrates my deepest desire.
You have overwhelmed me with pure joy. Why?
My heart is racing. Now, I know how an artist feels!
Are you an artist? I think so!
Please hurry to me! I miss you!
Tommy